Dorina is someone who knew me "when." She knew me when I could ice skate, hike, and cross country ski for hours. She knew me when I could stand and teach, play with children, sing and laugh without feeling like I might faint. She knew me when I was crazy enough to audition for The Sound of Music, and when I was crazy enough to take the part of Maria. She knew me when I could stay awake talking and drinking cranberry tea until 2am and still get up for class in the morning. She knew me when I could sit in an outdoor hot tub at 20 below and then go sit in the snow. She knew me when I could have snowball fights and run barefoot through the snow. She knew me when I could do a lot of things. And we did it all. Together. Dorina was a huge part of my former life.
I had a great time with Dorina when she was here in January. It was so very good to see her again and catch up in person. It was so fun, but it was sad in a way too. It was sad to not be able to be so active with her anymore. On some level it even felt strange because she is a friend from my "former life". She knew me "when." We're still great friends now; that hasn't changed at all. But how we have to spend our time together has changed. It was a good visit, but also a reminder of how life is so different for me now. It was a reminder of all that I had and all that I lost.
I am very tired now. I am weak now. I can't stand for very long, and on many days I can't even sit up for very long. My current life is very different from my former life, but the here and now isn't all there is. I have the hope of Heaven. I have the hope and promise of eternal life on the New Earth. Here and now is a brief time. Eternity is forever, and I will get to spend eternity in a resurrection body on the New Earth with my Lord and Savior and with all of those who have believed on Him.
When Dorina left I found myself longing for heaven, longing for a time when the two of us can both be active and energetic again. For now God has asked me to give that up, but someday in Heaven Dorina and I are going to have a crazy time together again! If your room will be next door to one of us in God's great big mansion, you better watch out! :) We will have some lost time to make up for.