Wednesday, May 12, 2010
When Watching TV Is a Wise Use of Time
I've been quiet on my blog a lot lately. My body has been extra tired, and my brain was needing a break. I like to be productive. I like to do as much as I can. I try to keep up with life, but when I try to do too much it all tends to come crashing in on me.
A couple of weeks ago I was making an effort to pay more careful attention to how I spend my time. Because I am so limited in what I can do, I want to make sure that I use my precious energy wisely. My body is usually ready to lie down for the night by 8pm. I can't actually fall asleep until around midnight, though, which leaves me with 4 hours of time where I am confined to bed, but awake. During those 4 hours in bed I typically read and/or watch tv.
Two weeks ago I decided to use more of that evening time reading and studying the Bible. For three days it was great! Television gets really boring, but there is an endless depth to God's Word, and I really enjoyed reading and studying it more. After a few days, though, my brain fog came in thick and didn't want to go away. My head was fuzzy. I didn't go on facebook. I didn't blog. My inbox piled up, and I didn't respond to emails. I didn't call anyone on the phone. I couldn't concentrate well enough to read a simple novel. I could barely carry on a conversation with Will.
That's when I realized that my body and brain aren't made to think and study for 2 or 3 hours a day. I could do that, and more, back in my Bible college days, but not anymore. Just as my body needs rest, my brain needs a lot of rest too.
After the brain fog got bad, I had several days of lots of sleep, no reading at all, and more tv than I care for. My brain was able to pull out of the thick fog, and I have returned to life as normal for me.
I'm able to think more clearly again now. I have discovered that thirty minutes to an hour of Bible study is my limit on an average day. In order to be able to think clearly enough to read my Bible, I have to have enough rest time for my brain each day. In order to serve my family to the best of my ability, I have to have enough rest time for my body and brain each day. In order to blog, talk to my friends, or do anything productive, I have to have enough rest time. Rest is important, and my body demands a lot of it.
Sometimes watching television is the best use of my time. And so each evening you will find me watching tv as I rest my body and brain (unless there is nothing on tv, in which case I lie in bed very bored as I stare at my four walls!). It's a good way for me to use my time so that I have the ability to read the Bible later. This is my life with a chronic illness, and I watch television to the glory of God!